Andrey Rublev has never really hidden his emotions on court. Some of his outbursts have become hard to forget – especially at the Wimbledon Championships in 2024, when he repeatedly hit himself with his racket, leaving his knee bleeding during a difficult match.

At the time, it looked like frustration over tennis. But in 2025, Rublev admitted it was much deeper than that. He revealed he was going through a battle with depression, and looking back on that moment, he said it had nothing to do with the match itself. As he put it: “That was the worst moment that I face about myself. It was not about tennis. It was to do with myself, like after that moment I don’t see the reason of living life.”

Now, a year later, Andrey Rublev has once again spoken about that difficult period, opening up further about his mental struggles and giving fans a clearer understanding of what he was going through at the time.

In a recent interview with L’Equipe, the Russian went far deeper than anything seen during a match. The world No. 14 revealed a time of deep personal upheaval that coincided with his falling out of the top 10 in the spring of 2025, when he had lost his desire to interact with life at all. 

“It wasn’t specific to tennis. I couldn’t find meaning in life in general. I wasn’t enjoying anything anymore. I didn’t understand the point of living. Every day was the same. It sounds dramatic, put like that, and it’s difficult for me to describe exactly what I was feeling because I don’t feel it anymore. But I had hit rock bottom, I was completely lost, I was shattered. Today, I’m doing much better,” he said.

The timing of that collapse was visible in his results. Rublev had been in the top 10 since 2020, except for three weeks in the summer of 2022, until he fell out of the top 10 in the spring of 2025. The ranking slide was the most obvious sign of a much deeper issue that lay underneath.

His self-destructive tendencies stem from a much earlier time than 2025, he said. The Russian explained that he had been unable to take a loss since he was a child. “Every time I lost, it was a tragedy. When that becomes your daily life for ten or fifteen years, you sink deeper and deeper until you destroy yourself.” 

It’s a style anyone who has seen Rublev on court for years will instantly recognize. The racket slamming, the frustration in words, the obvious pain when the ball goes out of the court have always been there. What it wasn’t showing was how much it was impacting him in his everyday life. 

The turnaround came through a combination of therapies and his decision during the off-season to bring in Marat Safin as coach. The former world No. 1 did more than just revolutionize Rublev’s game. “What really helped me was Marat. You know when you open the hood of a car to see what’s inside? Well, he did the same thing with my brain,” Rublev stated.

The results have been tangible. After his stint with Safin, Rublev has returned to the top 14 in the world rankings and advanced to the Italian Open quarterfinal. It is the type of stage he wasn’t on at his worst point in 2025, and he couldn’t be more different mentally and physically a year ago. 

When asked whether he had fully dealt with the deeper issues, his answer was honest. “Not completely, about half, I’d say. The goal is to pull it out by the roots and get rid of this cancer completely.” A player who’s been at war with himself for most of his career can now see the issue and discuss it openly, which is progress in itself.